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[03 Jun 2005|09:07pm]

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R.I.P. MY KAEDA PUPPY [29 May 2005|08:17pm]
[ mood | crushed ]





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[23 May 2005|09:49pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

you have to be kidding me, i am so pissed off right now. what an asshole.

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it's been a while, lets do some updating... [11 May 2005|11:12pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]


*New Puppy
*Left old job
*got new job
*SAW TONY!!! I miss him!
*Met awesome new people at work (Mark, Justin, Cassie, Crystal, MJ, jen x's2, jason hanna, etc....)


*lot's of roadtrips
*new piercings
*puppy time
*melly/jordan adventures.
*my first and LAST house party! haha


*lots of reminicing about camp...:-(
*Jordan leaves for his new job on a cruise :-(

so as u can see may sucks so far!

when i fall in love, i'll take my time, theres no need to h u r r y love when im making up my mind

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feelin' good about today!!! [27 Apr 2005|12:58pm]
[ mood | pleasant ]

i love hump day. the week is almost over and thats great because its been a shitty one. i finally just DONT CARE anymore about like everything. Because everything that happens happens for a reason, and deal with it.


its the freakin' weekend gonna have me some fun!



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[26 Apr 2005|12:10pm]
You Are? by Osaku
This is about you and me..err I mean you...
Nickname(s)mel, melly, melissss, moo, melly B
Hair ColorBlonde streaks as of right now
Natural Hair Color (if different)dark blonde
Eye Colorblueee
BirthplaceExeter, New Hampshire
Glasses/Contacts/"I Can See""i can see"
Birthmarkslight small on on my thigh
Song that Describes Your lifeincubus-warning
Relationships (aww)...
Are You In Loveyes, =(
Who Are Your Best FriendsKatie Pritchard, Lindsay Browne, Shannon, Joeface, Amylee, Laura Hicks
Do you Intend/Want to Get Marriedyes of course its every girls dream
If So, WhereOutside somewhere pretty, in the end of May
Do You Want a Family (kids!!!)are u kidding? of course i do.
If So, How Many2, im hoping for twins
If So, Boy/Girl/Doesn't Matterboys are easier
Aspirations (You go-getter you)...
What You Wanted to Be When You Were a KidA vet
What Do You Want to Be NowMy dream job is to be an actress
Where Do You Want to LiveTexas, NY, or Vermont
Where Do You Want to VisitTexas, New Zealand, Ireland
Where Have You Been That You'd Rather Be Right NowDisney World would be real good right about now.
What Would You Change About Yourself, Given the OpportunityI'd Lipo all the fat away
Place (Near or Far, it doesn't matter)Camp on the pond hill at night watching the stars (corny i know but those were some good times) also mt. midgey haha pritch
Vacation SpotI've only been to Florida
Shopping Locationanywhere with Jordan!
Music Genreacoustics
Colorblue or pink
Smellhot guy smell ;)
Shampoopantene or thermasilk
Ice Creamcarmel
Websitemyspace duh!
Carmustang convertable
MovieLord of the Rings
ActorSean Penn
ActressScarlette Johanson
SodaRoot Beer
BookThe Notebook
Game (Board/Computer/Word/Drinking..It's all good)board-sorry!...computer-snood...word-hang man?...drinking-flip cup or thumbmaster
Pop/Rock/Rapits all good
Color/B&W (photos)black and white
Tomato/Chicken Noodlechicken noodle
Noon/Midnightmidnight ;)
Did You or Do You...
Have and SiblingsCory 24, Tera 22
Cry Easilyyeah it sucks
Think You are SmartAt my job yes....common sense no...
Act Your Agenot always, its fun to be spontaneous
Have Any TattoosNot yet =) =)
Have Any Piercingstongue, eyebrow, ears twice, belly button
Have Any PetsGizmo-dog and Kaeda my puppy!
Get JealousYes unfortunatly, but not too bad
Ever Like Boy BandsYeah haha Katie Backstreet Boys and NSYNC
Believe in God/Allah/Jesus/etc.Ummmmm dont know yet
Take Criticism WellDepends on how harsh it is
Have You Ever...
Gotten Drunk Beforeno
Smoked (cigarettes)ewww tried it gross gross
Done Drugs (Any)theres been a few but a while ago
Kissed a Member of the Opposite SexYes
Kissed a Member of the Same Sexhaha yeah...
Been on an AirplaneYep, Florida 10th grade
Been on First Class on an Airplaneno but i will
Skinny Dippedyesssum
Had Sexnope
Take this Survgen survey!
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[25 Apr 2005|10:53pm]
[ mood | flirty ]


stealing from miss lo....

smell her hair. talk to her in the movie theaters. pick her up and pretend your goin to throw her in the pool, shes gonna scream and fight but secretly, she'll love it.
hold her hand all the time. tell her she looks beautiful. look into her eyes when you talk.
tell her stupid jokes. protect her. let her mess with your hair. look at her like shes the only girl you can see yourself with.
tickle her even when she says stop. let her fall asleep in her arms. call her.
if she yells at you dont get mad - just kiss her. let her take all the pictures of you she wants.
watch her favorite movie. kiss her in the rain. give her space if she needs it.
if shes upset stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything. make her feel loved. dont push anything. & most importantly ..
when you fall in love with her, tell her

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[25 Apr 2005|12:31pm]

I have mixed feelings about today. Things can get either alot better, or way worse. I just know that i am sick of feeling like i have to keep my mouth shut and not say things that i really want to say. im sick of keeping shit like that to myself, its just so pointless. I may regret it later but im tired of being walked all over. I dont need to apologize for anything. If anything i should be getting an 'im sorry' but it will probably come too late.

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take it all away [20 Apr 2005|10:50pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

im haunted by the love i have lost in my life...for people that have passed away, and the ones who chose to walk out of it. There's something inside me that seems to never let pain go, no matter how much time has passed, or how insignificant it now seems. Maybe i cant let go because i am still waiting for that day that will take it all away. Waiting for someone to say to me that everything is going to be okay. Who knows, maybe it's me that is supposed to remind myself of that...and i just havent had the strength to move on. Whatever the outcome of all the past is....i hope i see it soon.


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ever wonder if its all for you? [10 Apr 2005|02:13am]
[ mood | like no ones business ]

This weekend is depressing me. I told myself to get over it but thats where my wonders....5 time out of 100, it goes straight back to us. i miss us. i want it back. but do i? it's killing me. I love being at work and having my puppy here, and working out. All those things get my mind off it. but theres always nite time. where i miss you most. When I wish you were here to fall asleep with. thats when i hate the words you said. They still burn in my head like they were just said to me 5 minutes ago. I know that i shouldnt wait, but its hard not to when nothing compares to you. i dont want to fall in love with someone else. i want the love back i had with you.


so when will all this hurting go away. It seems like forever, and forever is a long time to wait,

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[31 Mar 2005|10:37pm]
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[27 Mar 2005|03:39pm]
it was so nice to see everyone last nite. I like nites like that. I wish jen and joe and bri and a few others coul have been there though. Then it would have been perfect. P.S. Kaeda survived her first party!!
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Kaeda meets Gizmo.....Gizmo = scared [21 Mar 2005|10:50pm]
[ mood | ]

Okay so we all knew gizmo was scared of a lot of things....but a flippin' puppy!??!?! lol


thats me HOLDING gizmo down while Kaeda is just being sweet


this shows you how freaking tiny she is.


Kaeda in the middle of nap # 7 of the day. When she sleeps, shes out cold.


nap # 8. I guess all that pooping and peeing can tire a puppy out.


P.s. sorry for no cuts....i just dont like them.....deal. :o)


P.s.s first day went GREAT! :o)

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KAEDA [20 Mar 2005|04:08pm]
[ mood | new puppy! ]






4 weeks old rut wieler pit bull mix shes gonna be my guard dog

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Skiing Pics. [19 Mar 2005|03:24pm]
[ mood | oh my legs!! lol ]


an ugly puppy in the ski lodge. lol i squished his face!


another view of senor ugly


My boots were little and ghetto and janah had normal ones being the pro she is. I eventually changed mine


Janah's skiis compared to my skiis....im a little shorter then ms. giant. oh and my random mittens :O)


I was so nervous!! lol, but i did not to bad. first time skiing since my first traumatizing 7th grade experience. I'm laughing, but i dont remember why


This is what happens when you dont know how to stop...i was going a million miles an hour down the hill screaming "JANAH JANAH HOW DO I STOP THESE THINGS!!!


Then little miss pro skiier fell on the stupid pulley lift....had to catch a picture of it as it was probably a one time thing, right nah?


then the loser took a pic of me struggling on the pulley rope. God i hated that thing!



So it was a fun day. And im not afraid of skiis anymore, too bad its already spring. haha.


comments por favor


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[18 Mar 2005|02:05am]
[ mood | cool, just cool ]

give melly2004 more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

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[17 Mar 2005|12:56am]
[ mood | numb ]

D.E.S.C.R.I.B.E. Y.O.U.R.]
[Wallet]: White american eagle 
[Jewelry.worn.daily.]: used to wear a really pretty butterfly necklace...bracelt...earrings sometimes class ring
[Handbag]: pink and dark pink
[Favorite.shirt.]: anything that is not mine.
[Perfume/Cologne]: Cool Water...Shine...or August
[Piecing(s)]: ears, belly, eyebrow
[What.are.you.wearing.right.now.]: black and white cheerleading pants and senior hoodie 
[Makeup]:  cried it all off

[On.my.mind.]: Getting past this.
[Wishing]: that bad things didnt happen all at once. it kills me
[Talking.to.]: joe and nick
[Eating]: nothing.
[Favorite.movie.]: Lord of the Rings, and the notebook, but not anymore.
[Something.your.looking.forward.to.in.the.next.couple.months.]: Ludacris Concert with joe. House to myself for a week. Doing Janah's hair for ball. Canada for shannons bday. New job. I guess you could say theres a lot to look forward to.
[The.last.thing.you.ate.]: waffles this morning
[Something.you.are.deathly.afraid.of.]: graveyards at nite.
[Do.you.believe.in.love.]: yes i do. its great when you have it
[Do.you.believe.in.soul.mates.]: yes. but we will never know when we have truely found ours.
[Do.you.believe.in.love.at.first.sight.]: yes
[Do.you.believe.in.forgiveness.]: yes its one of the most important things
[What.are.some.of.your.favorite.pig.out.foods.]: fun dip
[What's.something.you.wish.you.could.understand.better.]: why people insist on being the best at everything.
[Anyone.that.you.miss.that.you.havn't.seen.in.a.long.time.]: i miss the Katie Pritchard Melissa Brown Sarah Spano days.

[I.N. T.H.E. L.A.S.T. 2.4. H.O.U.R.S. H.A.V.E. Y.O.U.]
[Cried]: yes and to tell the truth im getting sick of it.
[Eaten]: yes
[Been.kissed]: no, its been about a month for any of that kind of stuff.  
[Felt.stupid]: People that know me well know that happens every day. I always manage to say stupid things
[Told.someone.you.loved.them.]: no
Met.someone.new.]: if you count all the people that came into dollar general then yeah
[Moved.on.]: no.  
[Talked.to.an.ex.]: yes and unfortunatly it didnt go well
[Missed.an.ex.]: yes and i hate it
[Talked.to.someone.have.a.crush.on.]: no
[Hugged.someone.]: gizmo
[Fought.with.a.parent.]: those days are over.
[Done.something.a.parent.told.you.not.to.]: i havent cleaned
[Would.you.rather.be.with.friends.or.on.a.date.]: friends, i need some good laughs
[Where.is.the.best.hangout.]: joes dorm.
[Do.you.have.a.job.]: yes. i start a new one monday

[Do.you.like.being.around.people.]: Yes, but not when i feel sad, cause its not fair to them to be in a bad mood.
[Who.have.you.known.the.longest.]: Stacey, Joe, Katie P
[Who.do.you.argue.most.with.]: i dont argue with anyone cause i hate confrontation.
[Who.do.you.always.get.along.with.]: Katie P. I can only think of one time we were mad at each other and it only lasted a day.
[Most.trustworthy.]: Katie, we have secrets to take to the grave.
[Makes.you.laugh.the.most.]: Lindsay and Katie
[Has.been.there.through.all.the.bad.times.]: Katie, Lindsay, my sister, joe, shannon.
[Has.the.coolest.parents.]: i like mine.
[Has.the.coolest.siblings.]: Joe def. takes the cake on this one, patrick is the awesomeist
[Is.the.most.blunt.]: definatly regina
[Is.the.smartest.]: all of my friends are pretty smart

[O.T.H.E.R. S.T.U.F.F.]
[Who.is.your.role.model.]: Ashlee simpson, i love everything about that girl shes so real
[Have.you.ever.liked.someone.you.had.no.chance.with.]: yes
[Have.you.ever.cried.over.the.opposite.sex.]: yes. it always seems to happen
[Do.you.have.a.certain.type.of.person.you.always.go.for.]: anyone who can make me smile, make me feel proctected and loved. someone whose funny and spontaneous, and they have to be taller then me...that is just a must. even though i am pretty short.
[Ever.wanted.to.get.revenge.on.someone.]: yes, payback is a bitch, i just wish i had the balls to do it
[Ever.liked.your.best.guy.or.girl.friend]: yes and we all know that doesnt work out too well
[Want.to.get.married.]: someday i want to yes.
[Want.kids.]: Yes. a girl named Kaeda and a boy named jaden
[What.is.your.favorite.part.of.your.physical.appearance.]: my eyes.
[What.is.your.favorite.part.of.your.emotional.being.]: I find a way to be nice to everybody. and i am good at understanding people.
Are.you.happy.with.you.]: Theres so many things i wish i didnt do. Everything happens for reasons, and only time can show you why they happend
[Are.you.happy.with.your.life.]: Life is to short to have regrets.


i miss those days.

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[13 Mar 2005|04:59pm]
[ mood | jealous ]

i had a really good weekennd, i needed it.

Friday i went to RIT and it was insane. i will post pics when i get them developed.

Last nite i went to fredonia and we went my my sisters friend daves house and it was really chill, we played the most fun game of asshole i think that i have ever played. We had all these ridiculous rules. it was fun...

Today is not a good day, today im really sad. I hate this feeling that i keep trying to chase away, it always comes back without any warning. And thats the worst kind of feeling to get rid of.

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i <3 country music [11 Mar 2005|01:40am]
[ mood | super ]

So heres a little update on Melissa.....


Got a new job at Washington Mutual....I start March 21st

My last day at Dollar General is March 18th, there for i am celebrating with going to see the ring two and possibly party it up.

Tomorrow Im going to Hilton to Janah's to mess with her hair and figure something out for her Senior Ball.

Then Work.....boo

Then Partying it up with Joe @ RIT. ....yay!

Then On saturday i'm going to Fredonia to my sisters house....and party it up there. Can't wait to see my amylee....and of course the sister.

Sunday i have off work thank JESUS!

Monday Mike scheduled me for 5:30am so i could help unload the truck on truck day----all the guys said i couldnt do it so i am going to prove them allllll wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats about it for now....


p.s. fear me


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[09 Mar 2005|12:35am]
[ mood | sexy ]

P.s. new layout.

comments please!!!

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